There was a time..

When I really struggled with reading John Chapter 1.. (now.. it is my favorite Chapter in the Bible..) right from the first verse (In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.) What..???? The word was with God the word was God.. it was so confusing and convoluted.. however.. that all changed Easter Sunday 2021.. Season 2 of The Chosen debuted with quite possibly the best opening scene of any television show ever created.. I won't spoil it, but.. you really should check it out..

That scene.. those moments.. really opened my eyes to what John is saying in Chapter one of his gospel.. Jesus.. being God.. was there at the beginning.. he was there when God spoke.. when HE spoke.. Let there be light.. and that light.. was perhaps not literal light.. but.. was rather HIM.. He is the light of the world..

I have not always been a man of faith.. faith is hard.. but I can not imagine my life without it.. well.. I guess that is not true.. I can imagine it.. I lived it after all.. but.. I can not imagine going back to it.. there was a time I mocked faith.. I laughed.. called God a tool created by man to control his fellow man.. and frankly.. there is a lot of evidence to support that belief.. the entire principal of "Devine Kingship" I am king because God made me king so you better do what I say or God will smite thee.. not to mention the "Christians" of the world who try to manipulate and control people through their own twisted interpretation of THE WORD.. ( I guess I shouldn't just pick on Christians because it is not the only faith that is twisted.. but it is my faith.. so it is the one I commented on..)

I know.. I am flawed.. I know I fall short of the grace Jesus gave me on that cross.. but at the same time.. I strive to deserve it.. though I know we can not earn it.. nor do we not have to do anything but accept his love.. his gift.. his.. grace..

I would rather live my life believing in Him and doing my best to be a great person only to be wrong.. whoops.. there is no God.. there is no eternal kingdom.. guess you "wasted your life" being good.. than to live my life not believing.. living how I want.. doing what I want.. only to find out.. whoops.. there is a God.. and I wasted my life dishonoring Him..

People talk about Heaven and Hell.. maybe they exist.. maybe they don't.. I wouldn't be at all surprised.. if there is only a Heaven.. our God is so good.. He is so great.. He may end up just giving us all the kingdom despite our mistakes.. maybe He won't.. ultimately.. I however.. am going to do my best.. to be kind.. and to just love.. not to "get a reward" but.. just because it is what feels right to me..